Monday, August 29, 2011

Blessed are Those who Mourn

There's a subtle change in the sounds, the shadows, the air of August.
It sneaks in without my notice most years. Before I realize what is happening, I change too.

It's inevitable. 

I grieve.

But it's okay.  I'm okay.

Dare I say... it's even good?

Yes, it's hard,
but just when I think I can't carry on,
the phone rings, the letter arrives, the card is given,
the reader comments, the children laugh,
the friend hugs, and the husband holds.
And all these little things are big evidence of this:
God loves.

You, my friends and family, are living, breathing, tangible proof that
God loves through people. 
I believe it more and more all the time.

Being on the receiving end of all this love has
reminded me all over again how important it is to give His love away.

Even the simplest thing, done with love and compassion, might be remembered for a lifetime...

 ~ ~ ~

I wore a bright, flowered dress that day,
the one my mom always liked best.
For some reason, wearing that dress was important to me...
but the rest of that day became a painful blur.
There is not much that I remember clearly.

Not the service.
Not the sermon.
Not the music.
Not who was there.
Not what was said.

I do remember how someone silently reached over and
pulled a single flower off a casket as it was lowered into the ground.
Without a word, he handed it to me.

He gave me something beautiful to hold onto.

A wordless gesture of kindness from a person I hardly knew 
became a sweet and beautiful moment in the brokenness of that day.
That person probably has no idea the impact he had on a young girl's broken heart.

I will never forget.

~ ~ ~

Often times, it's the little things that are big.

Listen to those little inner nudges to reach out in love wherever God puts you
and with whomever He puts in your path.

You know what I'm talking about. You probably know who I'm talking about.

Somebody needs His love.

Somebody will never forget.

"Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted." ~ Matthew 5:4


  1. thanks Kristi for sharing, I too have been a benefactor of the Spirit nudges that someone has acted upon. Your post is such a beautiful reminder that when we do everything to His glory, those small, insignificant (to us) actions are putty in His hands and He speaks to the heart of those who need is comfort or love at that moment.

    Always encouraged and challenged by your words.

    Kimmy K

  2. Hugs to your heart!

  3. Oooh kristi....this post grips me so much. I trust you will be held by the strong arms of Jesus during so much grief. Such good reminders of the body of Christ and how much of an impact we can be. I am continually amazed at how faithful our precious Father can be to place just the right balm in my day when I may not think I can crawl one inch further (and isn't He creative?)....but oooh how He loves us!!!
    Thank you so much for sharing your inner processing on here for us to share that journey with you.....hugs, Colleen