Monday, August 8, 2011

Chapter 10 : I Lift up my Eyes to the Hills...Psalm 121

 I hardly know where to begin.

How do you explain what you can't understand?

We have been given new information.  

The kind of information that puts an unexpected fork in the road.

And we don't know which way to go.

Last week we were on vacation visiting my sister's family in South Carolina.

While there, our case worker left messages to call her back.

We called back, never expecting what we would hear--a new diagnosis.

Levi has been diagnosed with this rare genetic disorder.

It is a complex syndrome affecting both his body and his mind.

There is no cure.

We have been asked by our agency to pray

 and reconsider whether adopting him is the right thing for our family.

How do you make a decision like this?


I hate this heart wrenching place we are in,

but God is here with us,

and God is good.

Though we don't understand it,

we believe there is a purpose to His plan.

We almost didn't go on this vacation. 

 It didn't seem like the right thing to do.

It didn't seem like the right time.

But now I see that God wanted us there.


I don't have a mother's shoulder to cry on.

I have sisters.

And my South Carolina sister is a pediatrician.

She knows the medical future Levi and our family could potentially face.

My South Carolina sister and her husband also have their own adoption journey.

They know this kind of heartbreak.

Being there with them at this time was providence.

God provided a week away from work and other responsibilities to process this news.

God provided the comfort of His Word.

God provided hours of conversation and wise council

that we could not have had over the phone at home .

Photo credit goes to Josie!

~ ~ ~

We are back home now with a difficult new reality to face
and an unexpected decision to make.

 We need your prayers.
Levi needs your prayers.

 May God's good and perfect will be done.


  1. Oh sweet friend, I will pray for discernment for you. I know your heart must be breaking. I don't know what my decision would be either. This is hard. So hard. But, not a surprise to God. He already knew. He made Levi. He formed him. Levi was not a surprise to God. Praying for you.

  2. Joy said it beautifully. Praying for you! Much love!

  3. I just read this on facebook... "If God has closed a door for you, don't try to re-open it. He has a plan to prosper you and not harm you. God never contradicts his will. Pray, seek godly counsel and follow the choice that draws you closest to God."
    I'm praying that God will give us wisdom, and show us the right choice! love you.

  4. Praying... Right now.
    You're all in my prayers. All 7 of you.
    Love you all so much!

  5. praying, Kristi, what comfort that you can rely on your heavenly Father's timing and providence when this news came and it is that same Father that will provide everything you need for whatever the next step is for your family.

    Kimmy K

  6. Praying for comfort for you Mrs. Visser and your family. Also praying that God shows you the right thing to do in this difficult situation.


  7. I found your blog through Joy's. I will be praying for you. Our family has been forever changed by adoption! I also am a Pediatric PA. If there is anything I can do to help, let me know. We will be praying. I wrote a post this week about hope. Check it out. :)