In 2008 I started a brand new habit of waking up early
(before the kiddos) for devotions and prayer.
Please don't paint some rosy picture
of discipline, dedication, and desire.
It was more truthfully out of desperation and discontent.
I didn't know why, but I had an unsettled feeling about our life.
I had no reason to be discontent.
Four happy healthy kids.
Family. Friends. A home.
All our needs provided for.
So, it's not that my life wasn't wonderfully blessed.
It was! Which only added to my confusion and guilt.
Boy, did I wrestle.
The question? What did God want for our life, because I sure wasn't sure about our plans.
My prayer? Help us to want what You want.
Do you think
it is some random coincidence
that the unsettling came
at the very
our little boy
in his first
"If you cling to your life, you will lose it: but if you give up your life for me, you will find it." Matthew 10:39
Yep! Hanna's pictures. Well, unless she's in it!