Chapter Two - The Unsettling

In 2008 I started a brand new habit of waking up early

(before the kiddos) for devotions and prayer. 

Please don't paint some rosy picture 

of discipline, dedication, and desire.

Um, no.

It was more truthfully out of desperation and discontent.

I didn't know why, but I had an unsettled feeling about our life. 

 

I had no reason to be discontent. 

Happily married.

Four happy healthy kids.

Family. Friends. A home.

All our needs provided for.

So, it's not that my life wasn't wonderfully blessed. 

It was! Which only added to my confusion and guilt. 

Boy, did I wrestle.

The question?  What did God want for our life, because I sure wasn't sure about our plans. 

My prayer? Help us to want what You want.

Do you think 

it is some random coincidence

that the unsettling came

                               at the very

                    same time 

             our little boy 

   was being 

knit together

in his first 

mother's

womb?

I. 

think.

not.

"If you cling to your life, you will lose it: but if you give up your life for me, you will find it."  Matthew 10:39

Yep! Hanna's pictures. Well, unless she's in it!